Surviving Step by Step: The Waiting Game

My youngest son turned ten this past week. He has joined the double digit club. He loved his cake and hopefully will have his party this weekend. Sometimes the days go by to fast. We all managed to eat out for his birthday. Nothing fancy, but was nice to all sit down to eat and have laughter together.

My son played soccer in the light rain Saturday, which I was surprised about, seeing that they cancel practices during the week when it has rained. He likes soccer a lot and it is good exercise.

My doctor’s appointment with my oncologist went good. Since it was close to my two month checkup, he decided to do that as well. Did my blood work and was given a prescription for my bumps. Doxycycline. Said it looked more like blocked hair follicles. They are disappearing now. I take the meds for ten days. I’m curious to see what happens after I’m done and the meds are out of my system. Tip: Take the Doxycycline two hours after you eat, since you have a choice. Especially in the morning. less chance the stomach will get upset. I have made my two big appointments. My PET scan is the end of October and my mammogram is the end of November. Very important test and feel positive all will be okay. To think otherwise would put me in a state of mind not wanting to go back to, knowing the routine all to well.

The job prospect is slow. Making sure of my contacts and feeling good about the way I look. My body and hair has been through quite a bit this past year. It has been ten months since my diagnosis. My biggest fear to overcome is going for interviews. Do I wear a bandana or let them see my hair as is? Coloring is the easy part. Showing my short hair is harder for me to get over.  The wig is out. To hot. It’s a process to go through that I hope no one else has to endure. I am sad writing this part and want to cry but will finish up and go see my mom. I need to try and stay busy until a new and good opportunity opens up for me. I deserve it. I do appreciate all I have in life and want to give back, but need to work financially too.

My husband and I will celebrate our 24^th anniversary next Monday. I want to say thank you to him for being there all these wonderful years. All the joys and sad times we made it through. Our Love is very strong and look forward to many more years together. Becoming grandparents(girls please) and just enjoying life. I love you.

My Faith will keep me strong and my Family will make me smile. Life is good.

Surviving Step by Step